19th September 2014, Friday
Yay!! End of the week again.
5th September 2014, Friday
人海茫茫, 到底哪一位才是适合我的呢?
在路上看到
一些正要成为情侣的
一些正在发展的
一些未完成的
一些连发生都不可能的
一些单方面喜欢的
主动各式各样的
现在坐在两层巴士的我
从上面看的一清二楚
从而有所感发 而写下了这post.
4th September 2014, Thursday
Had a good catch up with my girlfriend over dinner yesterday. We had dinner at Eighteen chefs, at The Cathay. Then followed by coffee at Kith's cafe.
She laments I'm brave to actually go out with guy friend one to one. Im like, why leh? Is it weird? Im also a little worried. All along to me, I thought its fine. But until she mention, then I realised indeed it is probably different.
Dont think too much is the advise and I am strongly abiding by it. Haha.
I'm just occupying myself up with activities to keep myself busy and fray away from those thoughts.
Looking forward to my guitar lesson soooon!!! ♥
30th August 2014, Saturday
Went to the Natas fair today with Ting. Morning when I woke up, I received a message from Dong yue that I have free tickets to the fair! Pleasant surprise.
So here we are, and in the end Ting bought the beijing package from Konsortium! But their package really sounds reasonable to go with.
Sigh. Recently I have quite a bit of stuff to worry. Taiwan trip, my mum hasnt confirm with me if she is going, thus I cant book the taiwan day tour. Redang trip is called off, cos my dad doesn't want to travel 9 hours on the bus. Unless I head over with my mum, but I am going to take 8 days of unpaid leave for my taiwan trip in october. So I dont feel comfortable taking an additional day in September unless necessary. Plus in November I feel like buying my dad a montigo batam weekend trip on his birthday.
Studies studies studies! Luckily I have quite a few kakis who are going to study together with me.
Fall here, fall there, fall everywhere. So hard when the other party doesn't fall for you. 有就有吧。我不想再去这么执着。
27th August 2014, Wednesday
So fast, its the last week of august. One week one week just passed like that.
First half of the year, I was still in hokiday phase. But now I think I found my pace. The quickened pace. I'm busily filling up my dates with schedules. Everyday passed so so fast; by the time I know it, I am always sleeping soundly at home, awaiting tomorrow.
I still need to sign up for ACCA exams.
I still need to open another saving account to save money.
I still need to study for my exams.
I still need to prep my body to the fullest so it can tahan whats about to come next.
I wanna buy a Longchamp document bag.
Geez.
Its always better to keep my schedules packed.
23th August 2014, Saturday
Chat chat chat
Laugh laugh laugh
Eat eat eat
Watch watch watch
I haven't been like this for quite some time. Really enjoyed the night out.
With a friend that I am so comfortably with. With a friend I don't even need prompting. Was such a good catch up. Hahahahahahahaha.
Comfortability has so many different forms. I was so surprised when u asked for catch up because you are the legendarily damn busy one. Hahahaha.
Don't compare me to yourself cos you are the more busy one, not me! Hahahaha!!!
So cute. Why you can make me miss you so much!!! Im gonna start counting down to the next time we are meeting again. Lol.
22th August 2014, Friday
突然觉得我们如果不知道自己要什么是件可怕的事。因为不太了解自己, 而会害了周边的人。
得先从了解自己开始。
我不喜欢谈过去 但我会从中学习 面对未来 我也不会老是想着过去 因为都是对未来没用 时间都在跟我们赛跑着 要做的事情实在太多了。
事情告一段落 祝你幸福 。
18th August 2014, Monday
I'll be outfront about it. Im not happy about the CPF scheme. Why do you have to control our CPF? Because we don't have the pension scheme? Why dont you, let US select the number of years we can get to cash out the money?
Hello, talking about how 'perfect' the scheme seems to be. What, u may choose to mortgage yout house if you don't have enough money to pay the minimum sum? What kind of nonsense is that. Have you mentioned about en block scheme?
We purchased our flats with 99 years lease, but only to be informed for en block when the flat is probably at 40 years old? Then u want us to change flats with the current flat market price. That said, u want us to keep on paying for our flats for our whole life. Its just that simple theory.
Whats that 99 years for . When we are gonna purchase flats, u may as well say that this flat that you are gonna purchase is only for 40 years, after that subject to en block and u will have to pay more for another flat 40 years later.
Wait for the election next year. You get it.
什么年少时候。那是几时年代的歌曲了。那个年代才有创意, 我们这个年代的创意都给你灭了。这个年代应该是哼林俊杰还是孙燕姿还是tanya的好不好。你哼那我们小时候的歌曲有个屁用, 那是你年代的, 当你在30 初来岁的时候常听到的, 我们呢? 都还不到10岁的时候。 干屁啊。Generation gap.
24th July 2014, Thursday
Omg I missed my ex colleagues at Seagate. Really missed them, especially my team colleague Esther. And my manager Jason.
Esther msged me yesterday to hear from me how I was doing.
I nearly teared. Omg missed her so much.
12th July 2014, Saturday
Next career move. Tax or internal audit?
I realised one thing. I can't study anymore. 读不下去了。
No matter how much effort I made, I just lost the interest for it. Its not coming back anymore.
2th July 2014, Wednesday
I left my phone in the taxi today. Felt so blank. But a fellow company colleague picked it up for me.
Oh man. I am so thankful. And towards my company too. Everyone is generally very nice.
28th June 2014, Saturday
Optimistic thinking tends to focus on the idea that everything will work out.
Positive thinking acknowledges that problems can occur and that everything won't automatically work out. But embraces possibilities and look for solutions without the assumption that everything will automatically work out.
6th June 2014, Friday
Oh man. We didn't have much sleep. The musical ended late yesterday. Around 9:40 and we gotta pack our bags to prepare for the next day.
We had to wake up around 4pm. Our morning flight to Nyingchi was 7 and we had to reach the airport by 6 plus.
2 consecutive nights of not sleeping well, I was feeling very lethargic. Weather was very good so far. Chengdu and when we reach Nyingchi.
Just visited a temple and lunch-ed. Now is our free time. But its actually time for us to rest before we go out to have dinner later.
Nothing much for today because we need some lead time to acclimatise. XD
5th June 2014, Thursday
Took a midnight flight and we reached Chengdu. Quite a relaxing day it was as our primary focus isn't Chengdu.
Nothing much; we visited 水井访白酒博物馆。Pretty interesting as we get to see the whole distillation process.
Then lunch. 成都四川省风味菜。
Relaxed a while. And we went out to the traditional shopping streets 锦里。I would say not bad. But not as fantastic compared to the last chengdu trip.
Then we had dinner. 药膳餐。Then we headed to watch traditional face change show. 变脸。It was the same theatre but the contents had slightly changed. Also, it wasn't the best one we had seen. Which in my impression was a very high class modernised theatre, and it was a magnificent show.
Then we rested for the day. ^^
25th May 2014, Sunday
... is that the younger siblings will never ever be able to understand what it takes to be the eldest daughter in the family. Especially if you have a male sibling. The conventional thinking that sons are important in the family exists as parents are still from that era.
Now, I know a lot of younger ones, upon reading the first paragraph will be cursing, what the heck, wtf? But I will be straight up and honest right away. If you think its offensive and inappropriate, you can choose not to read it. Im not stopping you.
Right from our younger days, as the eldest daughter in the family, we are told to behave in our best manner, do what we are told, set a good example for our siblings to follow. We did that, with no qualms. The younger ones tend to get more defiant during their puberty days, and yet they get away. We want to get defiant, but the answers we get from our parents are do you want to let down your parents? That social norm that eldest have to behave in their best is scary. Please note that I didn't even mention if there are comparisons among the siblings in the family.
And yet we think, probably things will get better when we get older. Sad fact, they don't. Finish our compulsory education, be it diploma or university education, we then graduate and start our working lives so as not to let our parents down. If you have siblings, be it a younger sister or, especially a younger brother in the family, u know perhaps among yourselves you guys may have talked about how to support our parents when they retire. That, is just talk. Don't ever think it will come true, or go your way. Especially if they are still single.
The society is changing. The roles of guys and ladies are changing. MALES nowadays, pa pa zao. Olden saying goes 生儿养老 生女烦恼. Nowadays its the opposite 生女养老 生儿烦恼. 生儿觉得儿子将来会感激你的养育之恩吗? 会在你老的时候照顾你吗? 等久久。 你真的疼错孩子了,趁你现在还年轻,能活动脑子,赶快把你的注意力放在您的女儿吧。一句问题,很简单的。看看你家里四处吧,看看厨房,家里的电视机,微波炉,热水壶,电饭锅,电冰箱,洗衣机,或许饭桌,家里翻新,都是谁处理的。家里有大女儿的话,很难不会猜到就是大女儿给买来的。
我,还没有继续说。我为什么说男人有了女朋友就pa pa zao. Guys nowadays are more prone to the feminine side. Once they are attached, they listen fully to their girlfriends or partners, even going ahead to move into their girlfriend's house and live with his in-laws. 这种例子非常多。Once they move in, 这句话很决 但是 就当作你已经失去一个儿子了吧。别想说您儿子会经常慰问你。别盼望他每个月的家用会给得多,现在的他还得付家翁家婆那边每个月的费用,哪来额外的钱给你? 别指望他会带你们出国散心,额外的开销,休想了吧。他,总是听女方的话,觉得他会听你的吗? 10句的一句吧。 现在养儿子,是养来给别人做儿子的咯,您不知道吗? 男孩一周只回来一次,说什么这样不行,那样不可以,老实说,你又没在家待着,凭什么说啥? 说什么妈妈就老是放在心上。这里也问一句话,儿子爱吃什么妈妈们都知道吧,那女儿们爱吃什么您可否知道吗?
做家中的大女儿,毕业后尽快找工作,分担家中的负担。妈妈说家里的什么什么坏了,需要换新的,需要修一修,女儿听了立马隔天把事情解决好。说结婚的结婚,还没结婚的,继续和父母一块住。结婚的,通常都会好过些,因为毕竟分开了,摩擦少,会拉近家庭关系。目前还没的,就得默默承受和屈服在儒家思想女儿的位置。
长大了,在每个家庭里,肯定会提到钱的话题。现在的家庭都没以前大,家中孩子多数两三个,最多到五个。五个当中,有几个男,几个女呢。父母又是怎么如何看待男和女的呢。别惊讶了, 如今父母都还是很重视男,纵容男,最终财产还是归男。钱多话最大,如今女生賺的还比男生多。父母发生什么事,女儿总是第一时间赶到。但父母确实纵容男,最总临死前遗嘱也归给男。会很无语的。但又如何? 屈服于身为女儿。
做大女儿是很辛苦的。如果能够读到这里的各位弟弟妹妹们,请你们多多照顾你们的爸爸妈妈,帮忙分担大姐的负担吧。
24th May 2014, Saturday
Recently I haven't been able to sleep well.
I had made my final decision and I told my manager thay I would not be continuing when my contract with the company ends.
Don't look back after making the decision. Was what my friend said and I agreed with her.
18th May 2014, Sunday
Omg omg omg . I can't believe I did it.
I organised a social gathering for my friends. It was a meet up about 12 friends, from different areas and industries. But mostly was related to korean language.
It all seemed too magical to me. From just vague talks with Chenyan spurred a series of contacting friends up and asking if they would be interested to join the gathering, to crystallising the venue and date.
No doubt I had once again challenged myself. I'm very shy when coming to such things, I wouldn't know who to call. In the end surprisingly the friends I had called up agreed without hesitation. I am really grateful. And everyone turned out to be so sociable with each other. Im really thankful.
Friends who turned up were Daniela (from ecuador, thanks for coming!) Jackie (thankssss so much for coming toooo I didn't know you just went for reservist and just returned on friday night only!) Lis and her friend Linda, Benjamin (luckily it was quite okay for him and he didn't feel left out, he is a very shy person), Chenyan and her three friends, adam and his friend xiu ming.
Frankly speaking I felt stressed the moment I woke up on sunday morning. I am quite worried about how it would turn out, whether my friends can mingle together, etc. All are my good friends and I hope that they can get along well as well.
Plus I was worried if the food will be sufficient and enough. It seems that I was the only one worrying.
The objective is to widen our social circle and make more friends. I hope I did reasonably okay and made my friends comfortable with each other.
Didn't take any photos as I thought maybe its not very polite to take one when its everyone first gathering.
15th May 2014, Thursday
일.. 왔다 갔다 왔다갔다 하는 느낌이..
정말 싫다. 이렇게 알면서도 진짜 싫어해.
나 한테는 정말 못 참아.
내 성격이 안 어울려.
이런 왔다갔다 느낌이 정말.. 끝이 없구나.
근데.. 어쩔 수 없이 ... 나 끝까지 가도록 참자.
지기는 진짜 싫다.
After reading Clara's blog. Makes me wanna head to another country now and blog about that country. In holiday mood. And not studying. Yes I am not in a korea fever mood. Hahahahaha. Im long out of it already. Even before I went to korea for language study.
I wanna blog about the holidays I had been!!!
There are just so many ends to be tied up and to be honest I am getting a little sick of it. Because its just not my personality to do that I know it myself. But yet having picked up this job I know I have a lot of stuff in this company to clear up. This us what happens when a company is too big.
Guess. Its really the jobs I am not satisfied with.
9th May 2014, Sunday
Its another friday.
I used to think the pantry at my previous employment isn't very well equipped. . Until my current employment.
Back then, it was fully stocked up of milo, nescafe gold coffee glass bar, sugar, creamer, green tea sachets, chinese tea sachets, English tea sachets, and even custom made coffee powder.
Until now.. current pantry is only filled up with... HOT WATER. Nothing else.
Well, enjoy while it lasted.
8th May 2014, Thursday
I need a book. And my coffee. Good short half an hour recharge. Tomorrow is friday!!!!! YES. I'm going to have another weekend getaway!
Just keep working on. My good-yet-not-so-good-in-the-end lunch at Astons. DX
I wanna eat a good pasta.
5th May 2014, Monday
I am really just looking forward for the physical inventory asset audit check to end soon. I don't want to write awful expressions on my pretty blog :-:
They say one will get stronger after overcoming certain obstacle. After overcoming it, it will seem nothing afterall.
4th May 2014, Saturday
Today I went to find Chenyan. Before that I went to wheelock place to collect my ipad mini from the service centre. Gosh I didn't use much and it spoilt! Luckily it spoilt before the warranty period is gonna expire (expiring in a month's time oops) so I was able to exchange for another new one. Hopefully it won't spoil again. I will protect youuuuuuuu my dear ipad mini.
So off I went to find her in serangoon. Then I notice the cafe which is situated on the first storey.. So I asked her shall we have coffee at her house downstairs?
Food is not fantastic. So don't expect. But its homely cooked food. Quite okay. However the atmosphere is. Awwwwesomeeeee. I had a lovely afternoon there. Very homely atmosphere. And its so comfortable!! I have definitely locked up this place as my future studying place.
Beer is cheap!!! Good to chill out. Their sofas are so comfortable. I totally let lose myself there. Haha no etiquette anymore. Its like home! Vintage. The bosses are so nice! To be honest, if you are going for food, its not the place. I have to emphasise its the atmosphere.
Good food cafes you wanna chill there but they are rather noisy. You can't stay there for long.
I'm already dying to head there for the second time. Omg I can just read a book there. We must go there and study together chenyan!! I found a good cafe to study or chill finally!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
In comparison when I reached yishun and saw so many students mugging their heads away in the awfully noisy starbucks, I thought of CAN cafe, and I'm in bliss. I won't have worries when I need to mug anymore! !! Chenyan u lucky girl!! Get to have such a good cafe in close proximity; house downstairs..... *@/@$@#$6!*$ ._.
1st May 2014, Thursday
Today is Labour day! Met up with Melissa dearie to have brunch and celebrate her belated birthday.
A red velvet piece of cake.
2nd May 2014, Friday
Today is a friday!! Its actually a day to go out but I'm heading back home to rest.
I tried chia seeds! Bought apple juice and poured the seeds in. Not bad.
But just dont eat the black seeds cos they kind of gives the foul oil taste in your mouth. Hehe.