Long time ever since I've last touched the computer

Hello ! It has been such a long time since I've used my macbook. I'm now in NUS, and today I'm just following my dad around while he works. Haha. It has been really a while, I joined this company for a year now, I can't say I'm doing very well. 

Today is one of the days I just wanna spend a full day with my dad. Hehe. 

Enjoy being myself

19th September 2014, Friday

Yay!! End of the week again.

人海茫茫

5th September 2014, Friday

人海茫茫, 到底哪一位才是适合我的呢?
在路上看到
一些正要成为情侣的
一些正在发展的
一些未完成的
一些连发生都不可能的
一些单方面喜欢的

主动各式各样的

现在坐在两层巴士的我

从上面看的一清二楚

从而有所感发 而写下了这post.

Going out with friends

4th September 2014, Thursday

Had a good catch up with my girlfriend over dinner yesterday. We had dinner at Eighteen chefs, at The Cathay. Then followed by coffee at Kith's cafe.

She laments I'm brave to actually go out with guy friend one to one. Im like, why leh? Is it weird? Im also a little worried. All along to me, I thought its fine. But until she mention, then I realised indeed it is probably different.

Dont think too much is the advise and I am strongly abiding by it. Haha.

I'm just occupying myself up with activities to keep myself busy and fray away from those thoughts.

Looking forward to my guitar lesson soooon!!! ♥

Natas fair 2014

30th August 2014, Saturday

Went to the Natas fair today with Ting. Morning when I woke up, I received a message from Dong yue that I have free tickets to the fair! Pleasant surprise.

So here we are, and in the end Ting bought the beijing package from Konsortium! But their package really sounds reasonable to go with.

Sigh. Recently I have quite a bit of stuff to worry. Taiwan trip, my mum hasnt confirm with me if she is going, thus I cant book the taiwan day tour. Redang trip is called off, cos my dad doesn't want to travel 9 hours on the bus. Unless I head over with my mum, but I am going to take 8 days of unpaid leave for my taiwan trip in october. So I dont feel comfortable taking an additional day in September unless necessary. Plus in November I feel like buying my dad a montigo batam weekend trip on his birthday.

Studies studies studies! Luckily I have quite a few kakis who are going to study together with me.

Fall here, fall there, fall everywhere. So hard when the other party doesn't fall for you. 有就有吧。我不想再去这么执着。

August is ending soon

27th August 2014, Wednesday

So fast, its the last week of august. One week one week just passed like that.

First half of the year, I was still in hokiday phase. But now I think I found my pace. The quickened pace. I'm busily filling up my dates with schedules. Everyday passed so so fast; by the time I know it, I am always sleeping soundly at home, awaiting tomorrow.

I still need to sign up for ACCA exams.
I still need to open another saving account to save money.
I still need to study for my exams.
I still need to prep my body to the fullest so it can tahan whats about to come next.

I wanna buy a Longchamp document bag.
Geez.

Its always better to keep my schedules packed.

Recent things I come across.

Ideal one

23th August 2014, Saturday

Chat chat chat
Laugh laugh laugh
Eat eat eat
Watch watch watch

I haven't been like this for quite some time. Really enjoyed the night out.

With a friend that I am so comfortably with. With a friend I don't even need prompting. Was such a good catch up. Hahahahahahahaha.

Comfortability has so many different forms. I was so surprised when u asked for catch up because you are the legendarily damn busy one. Hahahaha.

Don't compare me to yourself cos you are the more busy one, not me! Hahahaha!!!

So cute. Why you can make me miss you so much!!! Im gonna start counting down to the next time we are meeting again. Lol.

自己要知道自己要的是什么

22th August 2014, Friday

突然觉得我们如果不知道自己要什么是件可怕的事。因为不太了解自己, 而会害了周边的人。

得先从了解自己开始。

我不喜欢谈过去 但我会从中学习 面对未来 我也不会老是想着过去 因为都是对未来没用 时间都在跟我们赛跑着 要做的事情实在太多了。

事情告一段落 祝你幸福 。

Whatever he said - 2014

18th August 2014, Monday

I'll be outfront about it. Im not happy about the CPF scheme. Why do you have to control our CPF? Because we don't have the pension scheme? Why dont you, let US select the number of years we can get to cash out the money?

Hello, talking about how 'perfect' the scheme seems to be. What, u may choose to mortgage yout house if you don't have enough money to pay the minimum sum? What kind of nonsense is that. Have you mentioned about en block scheme?

We purchased our flats with 99 years lease, but only to be informed for en block when the flat is probably at 40 years old? Then u want us to change flats with the current flat market price. That said, u want us to keep on paying for our flats for our whole life. Its just that simple theory.

Whats that 99 years for . When we are gonna purchase flats, u may as well say that this flat that you are gonna purchase is only for 40 years, after that subject to en block and u will have to pay more for another flat 40 years later.

Wait for the election next year. You get it.

什么年少时候。那是几时年代的歌曲了。那个年代才有创意, 我们这个年代的创意都给你灭了。这个年代应该是哼林俊杰还是孙燕姿还是tanya的好不好。你哼那我们小时候的歌曲有个屁用, 那是你年代的, 当你在30 初来岁的时候常听到的, 我们呢? 都还不到10岁的时候。 干屁啊。Generation gap.

I have really very very nice ex-colleagues

24th July 2014, Thursday

Omg I missed my ex colleagues at Seagate. Really missed them, especially my team colleague Esther. And my manager Jason.

Esther msged me yesterday to hear from me how I was doing.

I nearly teared. Omg missed her so much.

Anyhow scribbles - Taiwanese drama remake - Korean Version Fated to love you

17th July 2014, Thursday

Was watching this drama, when I realised that I could understand 100% of this part! Decided to write down. Am sure everyone will understand this part as well. 

달팽이 밥 먹어야 되는데….

미영씨 그림 좀 많이 좋은데요

근대 이거 누구요

우리 아기요 이렇게 이쁘게 컸으면 좋겠어요

요기 양 옆에 엄마랑 아빠가 있으면 더 좋았을텐데

지금이라도 그릴까요

아니요 어차피 같이 있지도 못할텐데 뭐하러요

아 미안해요 내가 쓸땐 없는 소리를 ..

또 미안. 아무래도 나 말을 해야 겠어요.

괜히 봐서 신경써서 미치겠거든요

나 사실 봤어요 이혼 합의서지 뭔지 그 이상한 합의서를

그게 말이 돼요? 결혼하지마자 이혼합하는 사람

미영씨 남편 뭘지 문제있는 사람아니에요?

그 사람이 나빠서 그런거 아니예요 그런 이유가 있어서요

아휴 새상 그런 이유가 어딨어요 있어서도 안 되는거고

신부님 화내지 마세요

갑짝스러워서 놀랐긴했는데

그사람 그러는거 이해돼요

사랑하던 사람도 있는데

저때문에 모든게 물거품이 되버렸으니까

그럼 애기 어떻하고요

안 그래도 계속 생각중이에요

제가 기우고 싶은데

혹시라도 내가 너무 부족한엄마라는거 모르고 욕심되는거 아닌가 좀 무섭기도 하고요

무섭기는요

미영씨는 아기는 아기는 그림은 그림

내가 그림을 보는게 아니라 사람 보는게도 잘 알아요.

Internal audit or tax?

12th July 2014, Saturday

Next career move. Tax or internal audit?

I realised one thing. I can't study anymore. 读不下去了。

No matter how much effort I made, I just lost the interest for it. Its not coming back anymore.

I nearly lost my phone today

2th July 2014, Wednesday

I left my phone in the taxi today. Felt so blank. But a fellow company colleague picked it up for me.

Oh man. I am so thankful. And towards my company too. Everyone is generally very nice.

Optimistic thinking and positive thinking

28th June 2014, Saturday

Optimistic thinking tends to focus on the idea that everything will work out.

Positive thinking acknowledges that problems can occur and that everything won't automatically work out. But embraces possibilities and look for solutions without the assumption that everything will automatically work out.

Second day: Chengdu 成都 -> Nyingchi 林芝

6th June 2014, Friday

Oh man. We didn't have much sleep. The musical ended late yesterday. Around 9:40 and we gotta pack our bags to prepare for the next day.

We had to wake up around 4pm. Our morning flight to Nyingchi was 7 and we had to reach the airport by 6 plus.

2 consecutive nights of not sleeping well, I was feeling very lethargic. Weather was very good so far. Chengdu and when we reach Nyingchi.

Just visited a temple and lunch-ed. Now is our free time. But its actually time for us to rest before we go out to have dinner later.

Nothing much for today because we need some lead time to acclimatise. XD

First day: Chengdu 成都

5th June 2014, Thursday

Took a midnight flight and we reached Chengdu. Quite a relaxing day it was as our primary focus isn't Chengdu.

Nothing much; we visited 水井访白酒博物馆。Pretty interesting as we get to see the whole distillation process.

Then lunch. 成都四川省风味菜。

Relaxed a while. And we went out to the traditional shopping streets 锦里。I would say not bad. But not as fantastic compared to the last chengdu trip.

Then we had dinner. 药膳餐。Then we headed to watch traditional face change show. 变脸。It was the same theatre but the contents had slightly changed. Also, it wasn't the best one we had seen. Which in my impression was a very high class modernised theatre, and it was a magnificent show.

Then we rested for the day. ^^

A little of my sky diving pictures!!

When I was in Gold Coast, Aussie, Mar 2012. 

The sad truths being the eldest daughter in an Asian family...

25th May 2014, Sunday

... is that the younger siblings will never ever be able to understand what it takes to be the eldest daughter in the family. Especially if you have a male sibling. The conventional thinking that sons are important in the family exists as parents are still from that era.

Now, I know a lot of younger ones, upon reading the first paragraph will be cursing, what the heck, wtf? But I will be straight up and honest right away. If you think its offensive and inappropriate,  you can choose not to read it. Im not stopping you.

Right from our younger days, as the eldest daughter in the family, we are told to behave in our best manner, do what we are told, set a good example for our siblings to follow. We did that, with no qualms. The younger ones tend to get more defiant during their puberty days, and yet they get away. We want to get defiant, but the answers we get from our parents are do you want to let down your parents? That social norm that eldest have to behave in their best is scary. Please note that I didn't even mention if there are comparisons among the siblings in the family.

And yet we think, probably things will get better when we get older. Sad fact, they don't. Finish our compulsory education, be it diploma or university education, we then graduate and start our working lives so as not to let our parents down. If you have siblings, be it a younger sister or, especially a younger brother in the family, u know perhaps among yourselves you guys may have talked about how to support our parents when they retire. That, is just talk. Don't ever think it will come true, or go your way. Especially if they are still single.

The society is changing. The roles of guys and ladies are changing. MALES nowadays, pa pa zao. Olden saying goes 生儿养老 生女烦恼. Nowadays its the opposite 生女养老 生儿烦恼. 生儿觉得儿子将来会感激你的养育之恩吗? 会在你老的时候照顾你吗? 等久久。 你真的疼错孩子了，趁你现在还年轻，能活动脑子，赶快把你的注意力放在您的女儿吧。一句问题，很简单的。看看你家里四处吧，看看厨房，家里的电视机，微波炉，热水壶，电饭锅，电冰箱，洗衣机，或许饭桌，家里翻新，都是谁处理的。家里有大女儿的话，很难不会猜到就是大女儿给买来的。

我，还没有继续说。我为什么说男人有了女朋友就pa pa zao. Guys nowadays are more prone to the feminine side. Once they are attached, they listen fully to their girlfriends or partners, even going ahead to move into their girlfriend's house and live with his in-laws. 这种例子非常多。Once they move in, 这句话很决 但是 就当作你已经失去一个儿子了吧。别想说您儿子会经常慰问你。别盼望他每个月的家用会给得多，现在的他还得付家翁家婆那边每个月的费用，哪来额外的钱给你? 别指望他会带你们出国散心，额外的开销，休想了吧。他，总是听女方的话，觉得他会听你的吗? 10句的一句吧。 现在养儿子，是养来给别人做儿子的咯，您不知道吗? 男孩一周只回来一次，说什么这样不行，那样不可以，老实说，你又没在家待着，凭什么说啥? 说什么妈妈就老是放在心上。这里也问一句话，儿子爱吃什么妈妈们都知道吧，那女儿们爱吃什么您可否知道吗?

做家中的大女儿，毕业后尽快找工作，分担家中的负担。妈妈说家里的什么什么坏了，需要换新的，需要修一修，女儿听了立马隔天把事情解决好。说结婚的结婚，还没结婚的，继续和父母一块住。结婚的，通常都会好过些，因为毕竟分开了，摩擦少，会拉近家庭关系。目前还没的，就得默默承受和屈服在儒家思想女儿的位置。

长大了，在每个家庭里，肯定会提到钱的话题。现在的家庭都没以前大，家中孩子多数两三个，最多到五个。五个当中，有几个男，几个女呢。父母又是怎么如何看待男和女的呢。别惊讶了， 如今父母都还是很重视男，纵容男，最终财产还是归男。钱多话最大，如今女生賺的还比男生多。父母发生什么事，女儿总是第一时间赶到。但父母确实纵容男，最总临死前遗嘱也归给男。会很无语的。但又如何? 屈服于身为女儿。

做大女儿是很辛苦的。如果能够读到这里的各位弟弟妹妹们，请你们多多照顾你们的爸爸妈妈，帮忙分担大姐的负担吧。

Homemade Thai sticky rice

17th May 2014, Saturday

My mum first attempt of thai sticky rice.