丛刊回国了

30th Apr 2014, Wednesday

오늘은 내 친한 친구가 한국에서 중국으로 귀국한다. 왠지 슬슬하다. 설랜다. 나까지 연락해줘서 고맙고. 여전히 우정이 좋다.

진짜 친해 우리가. 총간아 잘 돌아가. 늘 건강하길 바래!

I think .. I saw him.

28th Apr 2014, Monday

Just watched Transcendence, this movie. Not too impressed I must say. Somehow, I even thought that was scary.

The movie ended with a flat climax. Everyone started to leave the cinema. And a guy in front of me stood up.

I think I saw him. He turned slightly to the left. Face slightly to the left but I still couldn't see him well. And he walked down the stairs without turning back.

Its surprising that he came alone. Or rather, seemed to come alone. Why. He had loads of friends isn't it. He had a gf too, isn't it. The people beside him also doesn't seem to be the people he knew.

I know. What's in the past is in the past. I am not looking back either. I would assume why and my head will start to spin a thousand of reasons why he would want to watch this show. Connect and disconnect.

But likewise, it wouldn't be him. It is my imagination. But he came after work. He wore a white collared shirt and black pants. Along with a briefcase I suspected because I couldn't see it. If he is really the man, he would have spotted me because he is alone. If not he wouldn't have tilted his head slightly to the left before leaving.

If its him, I think he knows. If not, I am still the same. I can feel, I have moved on. More wanting to keep a friend. If. If, you are happen to come across this blog (which I think you won't,  because you have disconnected), I really hope we are still friends and greet each other on the street. I am able to do that now. Forgive me for not being able to do that in the past.

And I know we probably would. One day. 有缘的话。我相信，还有机会。

Sad friend I am.

22th Apr 2014, Tuesday

Today officially, in my heart I cancelled off a friend in my friend list. She just broke my heart. Tore off my heart.

Sometimes jokingly, you would test your friend and get some answers. Some are really warm. Some are really heartless.

She? Belongs to the heartless. I knew her character from the start. She gave me so much stress initially (she literally uses her words to force me instead of understanding me) but after I understood her style I bit her back with force. I was just wondering how long we could last. It became a pull and push relationship. Hate and love relationship. Surprisingly we lasted until I relocated back to singapore. But just now the messages flowing here and there just tore my heart.

She even called me when I was in the mrt. I half jokingly asked her I would find her in beijing when she is there and asked her for her reassurance. She says no man. She has to see her man. If I wanna do sightseeing she obviously can't go with me. And something even more. She says if I could even risk my safety to meet her then fine go ahead. Its also because she worry about my safety. What the shit. Not that I bother anyways.

It was the last one that left me speechless. She is way beyond help. I think she knows it herself but she is not willing to apologise. Her pride is way too much for her to bear.

But likewise for me. No matter how much you try to explain yourself, I see through you. I see your heart. I felt it. Its cold.

You tried to explain yourself that you don't want me to feel disappointed. You always try to come up with a reason to justify your reason. Really? As a true friend, don't even need to explain. Even if its a yes, it will just make me feel good. Even if its a yes, and in the end you told me you won't be able to meet me in beijing, I will be fine too. Why? You exert your positive force in wanting to meet me (at least, or even if you fake it).

First already a downright no. Im not hurt by whether I can't meet you in beijing literally. But the fact that I thought we were good friends and I thought perhaps I could tease you to meet me during my trip just hurts me.

Just a small test. And u know. No matter how she justify and say there are a lot of friends who misunderstands her. So does it mean that people have to accomodate her? And accomodate her everytime? Its a no no for me. It must be a two way traffic.

All in all, so much so. I have tried my best and unfortunately this has to be the last straw. She said some things can't be joked. I would say the same thing to her too. Some things really can't be joked. I am disappointed but I tried to joked it off. You should be able to realise it but you didn't. I am hurt by you. I understand your point of view and I forgive you. Overtime I will forget it but I definitely know how much you as a person are, and how much I really should care less for.

Hugging the palm tree? HAHA

18th Apr 2014 - 20th Apr 2014
Friday to Sunday

Friday was a Good Friday public holiday. Me Ting ting and her friend Gillian went on a yoga retreat to Bintan, Indonesia.

We went with Yoga Seeds, which is just established not long ago. The package they offered were considered cheap, not too expensive. All in all, I think I only paid for about 450 sgd. Yes some may think wow going to Bintan yet cost 450 bucks?! But its a yoga retreat, meaning there are yoga classes arranged for you in the day and night. Thats why we are also in a way paying for the classes. People who participated the retreats often will prolly know its priced reasonably.

So the day opened with a morning yoga and close with a night yoga. Food weren't vegetarian, so it wasn't a full 100 percent healthy retreat hahahhaa but I did enjoyed myself a lot.

It was lucky that the whole yoga exercises weren't very tedious and for a brand new person like me to be able to follow and keep up, its peanuts for people who practise yoga frequently.

After this retreat, I am already looking forward to the next getaway. Pls. Let me have it. :-:

度量

21st Apr 2014, Monday

要有多点肚量, 好的, 我今天早上吃了猪肚汤, 我撐的下去的。多三个月。

The me Today

16th April 2014, Wednesday

Work is shit today. I know I may be saying out of anger now.

The 800 missing asset items is driving me crazy. Im not sure how to get about doing them. I am not given a clear direction. I dislike to liaise with the other lady because she is hard to handle. I just want to reduce more stuff that has related with her.

She called me names today. That is so disrespectful. I have nothing but utter disgust for her.

I may be wrong. I feedbacked to my boss. In return my boss asked me if he should tell her off directly. I was shocked and thus said no you don't have to, but I would appreciate if you can subtly tell her not to say any names should she say any names again.

After this, I realised full autonomy is not for me. Or should I say, perhaps I am not ready for full autonomy yet.

I am so upset. Why can't I overcome this. I am only here to assist this physical inventory asset count. I am only on contract here. Why make my life so difficult?

I....

15th April 2014, Tuesday

Benjamin showed me something he said he had always wanted to do for me.

It was a series of drawing paper flash cards. I was very very surprised and touched.

His character reminded very much of my ownself.

I kind of saw my old self in him most of the times. I don't know why. The characters I guess.

Aigoo. I .. don't know.

Checklist for first half 2014

16th April 2014, Wednesday

Things has been just bustling away ever since I'm back from South Korea last Christmas. 

Year 2014! Its like I'm on a working holiday for the first half of 2014.

 

: Resorts world S.E.A. aquarium in Jan
: 如梦之梦 play in Feb

: Keepfit Lights edition 2014 workout in Feb
: Melaka trip in Feb
: KL trip in Mar
: A Singaporean in Paris musical in Mar
: Adventure cove (Water park) in Sentosa in Apr
: Yoga Retreat at Bintan in April

: Universal Studios Singapore with family in Apr

: Ipoh trip in May
: Tibet trip in June

: Splashlton swimming workout event in June

Ahhhh more good days aheaddddd. :D

The woman who married three times

11th April 2014, Friday

Recently have just finished the drama stated above. Its an low key drama, but has relatively scored a significant viewership. I also started off from their 16 plus episodes but I was stuck with them all the way till the end. This drama style is not to capture you instantly, but it captures with their normal life-like conversations.

Literally from the drama, this is a about a life of a lady who had married twice and divorced respectively. Will she get married the third time? You see her struggles, her choice whether it is her right decision as she moves on in life.

The writer, being a famous writer (I have also watched her other dramas, equally good and touching), is well known for her endearing scripts. I can't really explain, its the everyday vibe her scripts had written in. The characters talked about life, just about really what you see in typical korean families. The drama, being able to sync with the viewers as one, and I think that's why its able to garner so much viewership nearing climax and all till the end.

It can't be compared to the makjang drama kim's family books because its not the typical exaggerated drama. But I like it. A typical housekeeper can even get equally as many lines as the other leads. They even get their own exclusive scenes and they just mumble off while doing their housework. How strange is that in the beginning I found that. Why are they given extra scenes? But later on I began to enjoy those scenes because that is through a third party eyes that depict the perspective of the family.

I liked that the housekeeper still works for the family when she is always insulted by the house mistress. Because that is life.

I like how the aunt in the house pacify her housekeeper everytime she is having difficulty with the house mistress.

I like that the female lead divorced her first marriage because that is life. She is a nice lady, but the her mother in law just doesn't like her.

I like how her family all supported the female lead's choices. She is especially close to her elder sister and they have always called each other. Her elder sister always comes to her when she needs help.

Something her second mother in law lamented which is so true and speaks of the generation gap:

내가 자존심땜에 이 결혼을 참았는데 그 얘가 자존심땜에 못 참겠어.

And her cute daughter. When she found out that she is pregnant with her second husband.
엄마, 이 아이가 어떻게? 아이가 불쌍해. 나 처럼 엄마 없이 살아야 돼.

When she learnt that her mother won't be seeing her second child, it was so touching and yet heartbreaking. 나 엄마를 지겨줄게. 나는 엄마 효녀잖아. 더 잘해 줄게. I'm sure a lot of viewers must have cried.

And the way the female lead tolerated her sadness all the way till at home, when she is in her room, then she let out her tears quietly. That was so so so heart tugging.

Lee ji a isn't considered a very good actress as compared to the writer's other drama's leads like Su ae. However she had did it fairly, but at times I hoped that she could have some other hidden emotions that we could see! After all its a drama; somehow the leads have to show us something if not we wont know whats happening.

I'm willing to give her another chance.

Dean & Deluca at Orchard Central, sg

10th April 2014, Thursday

It has been some time I have met these two friends. We don't neet up often, as we are all busy. But we catch up a lot everytime we meet up. One can say its always a quality meet up.

Lots and lots of chats, never ending. We ordered what, one all day bb, pancakes, prawn mango, truffle fries and avocado salad. Before that we had a strawberry tart! I didn't take picture of the tart because I thought perhaps don't need but now I regretted it. Haha damn delicious! Sweet strawberries  plus the fact I was hungry! Haha.

They gave me inspiration everytime. Without fail. Seeing them, makes me wonder why didn't I have such close poly friends? Them and their circle, being friends for a decade and contacting each other frequently. Thats really awesome.

We used to be from the same company, and now we are out of the company. No doubt today we are thankful of who we were, all thanks to our company. There's always loads of juicy stuff going around. Haha. So as usual talks about the movement in the company. And makes me realise one thing. Nowadays its the people evolving the company,  no longer the company evolving the people. If you get it, you get it. If you don't, you will be out of the league soon.

Its a sad thing that such a culture will affect the company to be so stagnant. In a vibrant environment, a stagnant company will never survive. For sure. Waters are bound to change, new leaves are bound to grow. Success today does not equal to success tomorrow. Thats what I had learned from my current company. And they had opted for an organization culture change.

Its no wonder Japan is in a state of financial crisis, and never surviving. Its because of the resistance to change. Resistance to invest. What I have today, if I can I try to maintain without having to incur any more costs. As a result it can't retain the younger ones. Afterall the younger ones have nothing to lose. And yes, for the younger ones, we will have to job hop.

Hop while we are still young. Learn more while we are still young. Move on when we foresee there is no career advancement ahead. Realistic, yes. But we have to. If not how to buy a 800, 000 dollars of flat. Maybe resale? The thing is we have quali and we are still young. Nothing to be worried about. I admire them. They are so full of energy. I can feel it bursting out of them. These positive people. They are at the age, whereby they are the heartbeat of our nation. Beating away furiously. I hope to be like them soon.

Department of caffeine

7th April 3014, Saturday

Met up with jos unnie! Had loads of good chat. Didn't get to see her in a long time. Really hope the best for her. To me, she really isn't hard to please though.

I was a little full before that, so we didn't ordered much. Just a quick coffee and some waffles and we were out of the place when we were finished.

The place was overcrowded, and pretty noisy to make a proper conversation. Tables were too small to contain everything. Just that food was good. Coffee was good. Really didn't felt comfortable as it was too cramped. People beside me were only sitting really beside me! Few inches away! Omg.

In the end. It was the kopitiam food that made us more comfortable. Sitting at the kopitiam was more comfortable too. Breezes now and then.

Yiruma live in sg!!

6th April 2014, Sunday

Went to Yiruma's concert on saturday night. Thanks to Benjamin, I got my first experience of going to a piano recital. Im very very surprised and superrrrr proud of myself that I didn't fall asleep!! XD XD XD

The recital was really really damn goood. Badly wanted to discuss and talk about it after the concert though. The way it was played. Overall I felt that the pace was so much faster than I had heard from the cd. But it was good too! I know because in the book cafe I used to frequent in edae, had always played these pieces. The pace was slightly slower. Reminiscent this piece. I had at least heard 50 times maybe? Staying at the cafe from 10am to 10pm, mondays till fridays during study period. LOL. That was my favourite book cafe in edae. Comfortable.

Kiss the rain that piece. When yiruma started playing my tears started to fall. I was so affected man. I have no idea why. My heart wrenched. I know this must have been used in dramas. Such a sad soulful piece.

To me. I hope yiruma has some jazz piano piece to share, but unfortunately throughout the recital he didn't really have, which was a pity to me. Maybe because I like jazz piano pieces lah. My style. I like them because they are able to spice up my mood after work. Relax my mind.

Or maybe there isnt a pure piano jazz piece. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Sometimes when you want something you gotta grab it quick

I went to Zara today. Before I started work, I went to zara to window shop. Alas, I saw a jacket that was pretty suitable for spring season. It costed 125 sgd but I didn't buy it. Because I felt that I could probably wait till the sale season later on and grab it.

However as my family trip nears, the idea of buying the jacket surfaced again. It seemed suitable for the trip. So I told my friend Jos unnie to go to Zara and have a look.

Its not there anymore. :'(

I liked it but not till the extent of buying it cos since I'm back in singapore. It was a good leather jacket I really liked.

Better ones will come, will they.

Skydiving

5th April 2014, Saturday

Somehow its not Korea that I missed. Its Aussie that I missed every now and then. Wanted to clear my photos only to come across this. Those were the times.

黑丸嫩鲜草

4th April 2014, Friday

Finally its friday! I realised with this blogger app I am able to really blog on the go! And even just thinking about it makes me really happy. Because I wont be able or rather, also have the reason to neglect my blog anymore!!!

Omg. This dessert is so nice. Benjamin introduced it to me and I really like it. Taiwan dessert. Didn't know that Benjamin bought it for me specially today. Aigooo. How can....

Really feel so paiseh. But in front of food... Ok, eat first, feel paiseh later. >.<

The hair serum I am using currently

3rd April 2014, Thursday

Week by week passed so fast.
It has been already three months I'm back from South Korea. Won't say I miss going back, because everything is back to reality and I embraced that. I'm comfortable with my life now; I have secured a pretty good job. I have no problems adapting back to sg. I'm lovin it.

However, I missed my friends in Korea. Missing that we are all separated. The only connection left is via that katalk group.

We all just have to move on. Maybe its because I have no regrets in the past that made me look forward to future. Having known that all these times would be short lived, I treated them all my best. I enjoyed every bit while it lasted.

My misen hair serum that I was using. Its finishing. Good things all have to come to an end, as always.

A photo post update.

2nd April 2014, Wednesday

Lets explore the blogger app!! See how convenient it is.

:Jellyfish in Singapore S.E.A. aquarium
:Cute cute doggie sitting at the back of the car spotted in myeong dong
:Christmas tree in Cheon Gye Cheon
:내가 좋아하는 삼다수
:Our footprints during autumn in Korea, oct 2014.
:매일 매일은 행복한 일이다

Just some photos that I cherish but will never see the light. I will upload you lovelies via blogger from now. ♥

Finally! A blogger app is here!!!!! XD

2nd April 2014, Wednesday

I haven't been posting for a while. Because mainly the last three months (sept to dec 2014) of my korean language trip in South korea, I had been fully enjoying myself. Without an app to blog, its so difficult to stay at home and just do blogging. Earlier on I had searched, but there were no apps on this. Now that I'm relocated back to Singapore, a random check and I realised there is a blogger app. Yay!

I have read the comments, mostly were not too good. Nevertheless I still downloaded it because what could go so wrong with an app that google has created. I hope this app can aid me to create posts on the go. Wherever, whenever.

Writing of this post, it feels relatively easy and convenient. I don't feel the blog template constraint on the mobile option. I used to update on the mobile before, I forgot what source I used. But it wasnt too friendly and I just gave up in the end. Its just like text messaging and its as though I am writing a long note down. Now I'm gonna try uploading pictures. If all is well then I will be using this app often from now.

Its really sad that I am not blogging often enough. I could blog often during my previous employment, but not now as my current employment blocked off blogger access. Quite surprised why they restricted that.

During the days when I was in korea, I told myself I will blog more. But ultimately I didnt blog. More often than not I will be playing in the outdoors and when I reached home, I am tired of switching on my laptop. I ended up sleeping away to the next day. Then the same routine followed. I usually will be in a daze state when I reached home early as I didn't know what to do. Lazy you can say, but I find myself dreaming away into my own world in my own room. Its a love hate relationship. In the end, I decided that I will just plan my days full everyday until about evening. Then head home have dinner, shower, relax and sleep. Can you believe it, I have no tv in my room in korea! Yet I still enjoyed throughout. You may ask me, how did I survive? But I really do not need a tv. Night time, do a little homework, and its time to sleep. Omg.

Speaking of which I will need to pull out all the photos I had taken in the sd card. Its overdue so so long.